True SelfI used to think i knew,Who i was... MY true self,But sometimes even I,Can learn something that shakes me,You think you know your fears..Your passions, and hopes,Dreams too, but,What about the ones that surprise even you?You find that one obstacle,That makes you stop and think,Who am I? What am I really doing?Why was I put here?We think about these at least once in our lives,We are naturally curious,Curiosity killed the cat they say,But they never said anything about humans,Can being curious REALLY kill your mind?Can it REALLY kill your soul?No... It gives you experience...It helps you find you...So just because you think you know your true self,Do not hinder yourself to one way of thinking,Let your instincts lead the way,You would be surprised,Where you can take your self.What is my true self?What is your true self?Its going to take a lot more then life,To help us figure this out....Life is what you make it...Or is life what makes you?You make your self..
FallenAn angelWith broken wingsA shattered haloWith a shattered soul.Broken from the fall.She fell fromSuch great heights.She couldn't reach anymore.It got to be too much.Then the expectationsTurned gravity on stronger.Failure shattered her wingsAnd she was left to fallWith no one to catch her.Pure white wings,Stained with blood and dirt.Her innocence left in the clouds.She doesn't belong down on the ground.The demons crawl out and surround herBefore long, they've consumed her.She can't fight them off.She's too weak,She's mourning her lost wings.She used to be perfect,Beautiful,flawless.Now she was just another monster.
The Sunshine of my LifeThere was a time when all my days were overcastwith gloomy gray cloudsand all my memories were lit in a gray-scaleWhen I would wake up andhave nothing to live forand nobody to loveMy life's path twisted througha forest of hate and painand I never saw the light of dayBut that time has now pastand only light remainsFor you have brought the sun out ofhiding with your smileand painted the world in colourwith your songsYou have given me something to live foras the memories I share with youare the first that come to me after I wake upYou have given me somebody to loveas we walk hand in handwith smiles of pride on our facesYou have become the sunshine that lights my lifeand I am never letting go of youfor I love youmore than words can expressAnd I will do anythingto take away your fears of pain.
Losing ItI'm losing it,My head poundsBecause that's whatthe stress does to me.Breathing gets harder.I can't think straight.My thoughts blur to,colors of red and black.The tears come makingEverything a little harderBreathing harder,Seeing harder.I can't even control myself,My head races,Then picks up on phraseAnd won't let it go.It tears me to bits insideRipping away all the goodI had started to feel.I don't want to go back.Figuratively: My nails dig,Deeper into the edge of the pit .I desperately don't want to fall.But you walk over and slamYour foot down, hard on my knuckles.It's a long fall and it's darkMy screams echo back at me.Flash back to reality: And IDon't know what to do,Where to turn. I feel trapped.My head throbs and the acheHits me fast and strongSquare in the chest.The group of peopleDisappear from my view.I can't take it,I can't do this.Then your arms wrap around me,"Kristin. Kristin, what's wrong?"I'm wrapped tight to your chestYour words f
Growing UpI used to be a good girl,Always doing what I'm told.But very soon I found,That being good gets old.I want to let my hair down.I want to have some fun.And don't try to stop me,'Cuz you and I both know,I'm not the only one.I'm sick of being pretty,Of being prim and proper.If a girl wants some fun,Why try and stop her?I want to be free.I want to be bad.Give my best wishes to dad.Tell him his little girl,Is becoming all grown up,And living out her life,Just the way she wants.
Saving Me From Myself"It's in these tangled thoughtsI swear", I holler as I dig.It was here, everything I wanted to say.My words never form fast enoughThen the thought slips away.Please tell me that you'll stay.Be patient as I try to sort things out.Give me a minute before I start.Or it will all be a rushed rambleWere nothing at all makes sense.Please give me a moment because,I had a list of things to say.Now-a-days it seems as if,If I don't write it downthe thoughts and words accompanying themwill flee.Faster than wild birds set free.I never know how to start.I tip toe around you,Because I don't know what to say.How to not upset you.But I can't do that,because I promised to tell the truth.But you don't want to hear meBecause it tears you up insideAnd I can understand but I needSomeone to listen, please just listen.But when I find you my audienceI don't know where to goBecause as I mentally pick upEach thread of thoughtAnd follow it through to your reactionI see something ug
All I WantAll I want is to be happyThat's all I'm asking for.Every single time I close my eyesat 11:11, every eyelash I've shed,Every dandelion seed I scatter,Every birthday wish, any chance I get.I wish for the happiness to return.I want it to come back and stay,Because right now I get it for 30 minutesTops, at a time. I can't live like this.I hate how it deteriorates and shattersI break down and feel the tears rim my eyes.You're saying "Goodnight, love and thanks for aWonderful date. You were really happy tonight.It's different and I loved it."A little piece shatters because,I was going to tell you how sad I am now.I can't control it, my face fallsNow you think you did something wrong.But I must stay silent and rush you out the doorBecause I don't want to ruin today.But you refuse to go till I'm honest.I can't be love, we we're doing so good.You drag me to the couch and demand to knowI crumble into your arms and the tears fall.
Trying not to Diewith happy boughsto shelter my walkbut heavy feetand a heavy hearti feel elderlyalthough so youngweary before my timeperhaps prematurlyi may shrivel and dieyou promised to pull meout of the graveyou promised to give lifei just want to close my eyesso take me homeis that too much to ask?this world of "what if"swill not dissipatetrying to see goodi can't deny the truthsliving in the liesit breaks me downso i cannot start to cry
PreciousCracked and chipped behind a wall of stone,Not quite as solid only protected by bone,The light never finds and the shadows shy away,What was once whole yesterday is no longer today.The breaks between the blinds mimic my mind,Filtering only happiness with the shades that trail behind,They are looming and leering as they creep up my spine,Delightfully cheering you have worn out your time.The harmony that brought me here has bloomed into a war,I hid behind the doors only to see the blood seep onto the floor,Forevermore I'm tainted with what we had before,What's remembered soon becomes forgotten like a grain of sand upon the shore.The echo that screams: we have only just begun!Reverberates through my lungs and cracks my heart and skull.These eyes became lifeless and dull like a distant star,The rolling winds ceased over the meadows so far.Trapped inside the cage beneath your chest,Is locked what we give so easily, we will suffer like the rest,When it has bee